Forgiveness

How come it is so easy to forget something for awile , but so hard to forgive.When we run into someone from our past that hurt us, the heart beats faster, blood pressure rises and it seems like the incident just happened. I forgot about it a year ago ,but now I'm all fired up. Why did I listen to the message when I recognized the phone number? Why can't I let it go? I want to return the call, but I know that is the wrong move.All of a sudden I can't fogive and forget. Now I have 2 problems.
#1. I just need to acknowledge that the person that called is a suck up, brownnoser, and busybody who gathers info from people and uses it against them later. This person has always been like this so I must just let it go.
#2.I need to be the bigger person and let it go. After all he's the athiest and I'm the christian. That's how its supposed to happen
OK God, I get it now , I just had to write it out. Now I get it. Thanks for listening, and thanks for being there for me regardless of how goofy I act. It amazes me how you're always ther to pick me up, dust me off and send me back on my way.

Blessings,
Steg